Finally! A stuttering awareness movie that get’s recognized. I may be a little late speaking about the Stutterer, the movie that won best short action film on the Oscars, and believe me when I tell you that I didn’t even watch the Oscars, but when I heard about it, I had to watch this short film. My reaction resulted in being as shocked as you were (probably); it truly is a great short film.
Let me take the time to reintroduce myself. My name is Saytue Saye and I am a stutterer. I’ve stammered my whole life. Growing up, I’ve had people laugh at me in my face (family) and turn around a say it’s not funny, but it’s funny. Growing up, I’ve had my confidence stripped away from me because I couldn’t get my words out fast enough. People talk over me, rush me to speak, and simply didn’t listen to what I had to say, because my words couldn’t come out fast enough, fluently enough. I’ve felt isolated because I felt like nobody understood how I felt; and I damn sure wasn’t brave enough to express how isolated I felt. My anxiety kicked in at the worse times, especially around my friends and a group of people causing me to become socially awkward. I would literally talk in my head rehearsing what I would say to people in hopes of not stammering so bad causing them to be turned off. I hated to argue, I got frustrated of my words being stuck. I usually cry during these times because I feel unheard and angry at the fact that I feel unheard.
As you can see, I struggled with my stuttering problem as a child. It kind of made me into a loner. I may get a little emotional in this article piece, and that is because as a adult, I’ve overcome my stuttering problem. Actually, you probably wouldn’t believe if I told you I use to host a very popular online radio show for almost six years called Mixture of Arts where I’ve interviewed celebrities such as: Mimi Faust, Sean Paul (from Young Bloodz), Dj Paul (from 3 6 Mafia), Boonie Mayfield, and many others. I can also stand in front of a camera and talk without feeling embarrassed when I get stuck on a word. And I can hold a decent conversation without you even noticing that I stutter. I have confidence in my stammer. It’s no longer a stammering problem, because I don’t let my stuttering control my life- Anymore!
I can totally resonate with the Irish short film Stutterer. It almost made me cry. It’s very personal. It makes me happy to know that we “stutterers” finally had our voices heard. The film is written, directed and edited by Benjamin Cleary, produced by Serena Armitage and Shan Christopher Ogilvie, and director of Photography Michael Paleodimos.
Below you will find a a quick video I did on this topic. It’s called “A Stutterer’s Expression”. I’m being brutally honest and sincere. You may feel some kind of way, but hey, it’s a stutterer’s expression. I am a stutterer and this is how I feel.